They say that the mind plays tricks, tells you what you are not and puts you in a position that you have no choice but to face.
They say that the opportunities you missed can never be regained, but what if they are wrong?.
What If that is just their own views of life and it shouldn’t dictate to you what yours should be?. What if that is just a paint made blue by the world but the colour differs with you?.
Funny how you might never know since you never once thought of finding out for yourself. You subjected yourself and your mind to every word that they said, to the very world they made for you.
You feel you don’t know better, so why just waste your time and energy finding it, making out your own path. When you can easily take the one right in front of you, no needed effort,no needed pain, but what if I tell you that the effort you don’t want to take is needed for the discovery of the real you.
I remember a little scene that happened not too long ago, siting in the classroom wondering what is going to happen next.
I saw a young girl, she seemed tired of everything, she was sitted on a table just few rows from where I sat. She brought out a paper and a lighter, and before I knew it she burnt it to ash.
Iwas puzzled so I went over and asked her why, what she told me made me think deeply.
She said,”the paper I burnt just now, was a list of things I said I will do, a list of things I tried to do, a list of things I forced myself to do”,
“So you burnt a to do list?”, I asked,
“Yes”, she answered, “a to do list on how to be someone else, a to do list on how to imitate others and not know who I am or what I am supposed to be, a to do list on the list of things I am allowed to do if I wanted to be like someone else even if I don’t like it or see any reason to doubt it”,
I smiled and said,”but you choose to keep it in the first place, why burn it?, Is it because you can’t keep up with the demands and all it takes or ….”,
She said,”it really isn’t hard to copy and do what was on the to do list, I mean, that is what I have been doing for the past three months, but I noticed something”,
She came down from the table and faced me,”it was easy for me to be someone else but when it came down to being who I am, I was blank, I didn’t know if this was what I could have wanted or if it was what I wanted since I followed a to do list”,
I looked at her for a second, well it must have been more than a second, but still what she said hit me seriously.
So I asked her to explain more, she seemed to want to though as she smiled and told me to have a seat,
“let me explain”, she said, “Imagine I passed through a sweet shop for instance, I felt I should go in and buy a chocolate but then I thought to myself, am I buying the chocolate because I wanted it or was it because I ought to buy it?”,
“Hmmmh, so what you are trying to say is that, you don’t know if what you were doing was what you could have done if you hadn’t followed the list”,
“Exactly!!”, She answered with a smile.
Now let’s leave that little scene alone and come back to what we were discussing earlier on, what if?, What if?, What if??, That’s a really funny question but I feel it shouldn’t be taken with such levity…….